Lack of Support--hurdle #1

I said earlier that this weekend was going to be my BC wknd. and it really was, i swear! However, due to the huge absence of support, I had nobody to cut my hair for me and for fear that I would cut part of the natural hair, I did not cut it myself. Right now, I'm feeling so defeated. I'm determined to do this, but no one will help me. It's such a spirit killer for me, but i refuse to give up. I'm seriously thinking about going to a salon and letting them cut it for me, but costs and technique are very important and will probably defer my BC even more.

this is the amount that I cut off of the very front of my hair, then I got lazy -_-

You know what gets me really upset though?...when my mother tells me to just perm it because I don't have the face for short hair and i'm going to look ugly or whatever. I get so angry and then even more depressed because I can't really exert my anger. This just shows me how much support I don't have and that I'm really in this by myself over here. It's heartbreaking and sad, but I'm not going to let it kill me.  I'm determined to continue this journey.  It makes me think of other women who have made the decision to go natural, and gave up because there was nobody there for them. I wish I knew what to do, but right now, I'm feeling their pain. I have no urge to perm my hair though. I'm curious to see a new side of my beauty. Stay tuned. :)

Big Chop

Recently, my hair has been rebelling. I think it's getting too long for the styles that I loved so much towards the beginning of my transition. For this reason, I am seriously considering BCing earlier than anticipated. I've really been thinking about I and might bc as early as this wknd. We'll see, and as always, I'll upload pictures.


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UPDATE!

I've been off the blog scene for a while, due to my hectic schedule, but once I settle in and develop a routine, I'll be back. For now, a quick update:

• I'm still alive...
• and still transitioning...
• and still loving my curls!!!!
• This month marks 6 months post relaxer!!! 
• I actually have 3 inches (stretched) of natural hair!!! excited!!!
• Mom's pushing the BC, but I think that's more curiosity than anything.
• I can't wait to be natural.

Below, is a picture of a braid out I did last week, my hair is getting so long! For now, my BC date is still set for December...Stay tuned!!!

Disaster

So apparently, my hair thought it would be fun to just not listen at all today. SOOOO NOT COOL!!! As I've told you guys, Bantu knots have become my nightly routine to achieve the fro-ish curl look I've grown to love on this journey; so last night (like every night) I knotted my hair to prepare for luscious curls this morning. Little did I know, my hair took it upon itself to just not curl AT ALL!!!! Right now, I am under the dryer with my rewetted knots hoping that they curl :'(. Ugh!!!!! The one day that I actually have to go out, my hair decides to misbehave! Good thing I had time to deal with it this morning. This better knot (pun intended) happen again.
Note to my hair: It would be in your best interest to take heed to this warning! I'm soooo NOT kidding!! -_-

Stay tuned!!!!!

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It's been a while, here are some updates =D

So tomorrow is the official first day of school -_- but I do have good news! For the first time in my entire back to school career, I actually love my hair lol. I remember the years when I would get a fresh touch up right before school started up again just so I would look fresh, and by the end of the week  I would HATE  how flat and lifeless my hair looked.  Not this semester, honey, I'm going back with style and I'm gonna WORK this transitioning curly head.

On Sunday, I washed my hair and while playing in my hair semi-drying, I picked up a pair of scissors and did a semi mini-chop in a back section. I chopped off about an inch or 2 of relaxed hair (all that was back there) and immediately felt freedom. I was even more excited to see that my hair was actually long enough in the back to be seen in the front during it's natural state, and when stretched, it reached the nape of my neck! My baby is growing!!!!

Another update for you guys:

My mom is actually semi-supportive. I haven't heard "get a perm" from her in a while.She actually offered to mini twist my hair which I refuse because of the relaxed ends. I KNOW  they will not cooperate, and this past weekend, she offered to weave it so it can grow which I refuse because weaves are annoying. But I do appreciate the support!

I can't wait til i'm 100% natural. The world aint ready for the gorgeosity of my curls ;)

Pictures will follow soon....stay tuned!!!

When did Chemical Burns Become the Norm?

I remember getting touch ups every month and almost every single time, it resulted in a burn and i just blew it off deeming it ordinary. But think about it, if you stay out in the sun too long and get burned, you learn to put on sun block or just not stay in the sun too long; if you spill a chemical on your skin resulting in a burn, you get treatment and learn to be more careful; if your cooking, and you burn yourself on the stove, you learn not to stand too close to the popping oil, or use better heat protection. Why is it that when women get burns in their scalp, they brush it off and continue relaxing their hair? Burns are NOT acceptable!! So why do we accept it??

The last time I had my hair relaxed, it resulted in severe burn in the the entire front right quarter of my scalp along with minor burns on other parts of my scalp. The burns were so sever that I made the decision to NEVER put that crap in my hair ever again! Yet, women who are fully aware that their scalp is sensitive to the chemicals in the relaxer continue to relax their hair and suffer these burns. Is the pain really worth the week (more or less) of "beauty" you get from a fresh touch up? Is it really worth still having sub par hair and a clearly damaged scalp. Think about it!!!

Bantu knot out part 2

My Bantu knot out and new headband from xxi <3

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i have come to realize something about relaxers....

they're just not real!!!! I mean, that's obvious, but it's becoming more apparent to me on this journey as i scope out more natural women. Today, my sister and mom went to the hair salon to get they're hair done. After, about 2 months of stretching her perm, my 12 year old sister went to get a touch up and a cut. FYI: she's been getting perms since she was 7 and when I decided to go natural, she wanted to do it too, but my mother detested it because she hates "nappy hair" and its just "not right", so my sister had to get a touch up.  When she came home, her hair looked nice, but it was obvious to me, that this style was not her. While stretching her relaxer, she wore braids, and braid outs, that fit her just beautifully, making it more apparent to me that pin straight "white girl hair" looked unfitting on her. If this is the case, why do black women continue to get relaxers? Can't they see the truth???

Kinky Twists

I am currently rocking kinky twists as we speak just to keep my hands out of my hair.  So far, It's working! I've had the twists in for a little over a week and I plan to keep them in until the end of the month. Then, i will redo the front myself. I learned how, through youtube and was even able to do my aunt's hair! So yea, I'm excited! Peep this pic!

New Additions to the Staple Product Family

Normally, this post would go under the "Product Reviews" tab, but these products are special....special enough to be featured as its very own post. "What are these products?" you ask, why! conditioners of course!!! I finally found the most perfect conditioner that leaves my hair feeling fabulous and doesn't cost an unreasonable amount of money.This conditioner is the Suave Humectant Conditioner. It is amazing. The thick consistency penetrates my defiant curls and softens them instantly making me swoon under its power (that sounds like a romance novel lol)  I truly love this product, I've NEVER, in all my years of washing and conditioning, felt my hair this soft days after my wash.  It is now Tuesday, and I washed my hair on Sunday, and it's still super soft without a tangle in sight!

Following this conditioner, I used a  Herbal Essences Leave-In Conditoner called None of Your Frizziness Smoothing Creme (hair forums rave about the long-term relationship one, but I prefer this one after trying both...the Long Term Relationship scent is kind of harsh). This creme eliminated frizz as promised and softened my already soft hair. I always thought that Herbal Essences products were only for "white people's hair" (whatever that is), but I'm so glad I tried it. I love love love my new staple products!